tylerlclark:

Dear Pastor Mark Driscoll,

First off, I want to acknowledge that I don’t know you personally, and I have never attended your church. Most of what I know of you is based on a small handful of your sermons and statements. You and your ministry are surely nuanced and complicated, but this…

hurricane Irene swept thru the whole of east coast… and we are fine..

and I guess I can trust this guy I’m horribly in love with…

Not a good sign.

Not…a…good…sign.

cotton candy clouds!!!!!!!!

view outside his house

Currently in new york, long island right now. Been here since 21st August 2011. 3/4 days already. A full week to go before going back to beijing.

Earthquake was experienced in here in Long Island. er, i mean people felt the ripples from Virginia. haha. Matt was furious about not experiencing it and that it stole the thunder from his 24th birthday.

All is good here. His parents are funny and very hospitable. 2 brothers of his are very good looking :p haha.

Actually been enjoying my time in new york. the sky is so so so beautiful. Like my friend elena said “that’s the America Dream!” oh yeah

hopefully things are alright between Matt and I cus this morning we received an email from his exgirlfriend asking if he’s alright…… and then i secretly got to know about something too.

Hard to CRTLZ whatever that i saw. but… just gonna try to put that behind me and enjoy my remaining 7 days here.

Heading out to the city tmr. wohoo!

Well the main reason for this trip is to celebrate Matt’s 24th birthday. Awesome time with his family, yummilicious dinner at an italian restaurant, polaroid sessions and cake cutting. haha.

while im sitting here to type this post, matt is searching for his job. …

toddles.

laying in bed thinking what just happened

wishing that I could wear a shade or put on headphone just to be able to see what I want to see, listen to things that are soothing to my ears.

I sit and fret what have I done.

when things happened once… you said it’s okay.

when things happened again… you wonder if everything is okay.

when things happened more than three times… you know there’s sthg wrong..

time again when we try to fix things, we said we did our best and argued that whatever that’s nt fixed —-it’s not our fault. when the problem persists, we say ‘we deperately need to get over this problem’ ….

do we know what’s causing the problem?

have we been wasting too much of our time on analysing how to cure the symptoms rather than searching the roots that caused the symptoms?

sigh am I really … really over this?

perhaps… not.

and sometimes you dun ask if I wan it or not. it just goes to show how
reluctant you are. because if you really want to, you will… without a second of hesitation.

you can take everything I have…

you can break everything i am like im made of glass…like im made of paper…

go on and try and tear me down

i’ll be rising from the ground like a skyscraper……

[demi lovato-skyscraper]

how true

some people search for their entire live for what we have and never find it… I wunt give up(at least for now lol), I’ll fight for you boy